27 September 2009

Last night I sat and talked to my CHU-mate for almost two hours straight.  We talked about everything.  He now knows about my med school plans, that my parents farm, and that both of my grandparents still living have had cancer.  I know that he lives in the Philippines with his wife on a rice farm, that this is his last or next to last year in country, that when he gets home he is going to increase his operation to include buying and selling rice to mills, and that from seeding to removing rice seedlings to replant is about 28 days.  I also know that his brother has pancreatic cancer.  The 5-year survival rate for pancreatic cancer in Caucasian men is less than 5%.  I really wish I hadn't had to lie to him when he asked me how bad pancreatic cancer was. 

The point is, this has happened to me several times since I have been over here, and twice in the last week in a half.  I will have been talking to someone, sometimes for hours, and realize that I never gave them my name and they never gave me theirs.  Sometimes, we even part ways without ever finding out the other's name.  These conversations are sometimes your garden-variety bus stop bench, grocery store line chats, but more often are lengthy discourses on love, life, home, or dreams.

I don't know what it is that makes perfect strangers open up to each other in a way that would take months in the States.  Does this type of work draw those people that naturally open up to complete strangers?  Or, is it the common bond shared by being 8000 miles from home in a place where most often relationships are quickly formed and even quicker broken?  I think that it is human nature to want to reach out and connect with those around us, even if we know that those connections will soon be over.  I have had some of the longest discussions I've ever had with people I've only known for five minutes.

Oh, and my CHU-mate?  I finally found out his name, right before he left for another base this morning, but for the life of me I can't remember it.  I guess it really doesn't matter.....

22 September 2009

In Honor of the Ulitimate Sacrifice Freely Given

Fairbanks-based soldier dies in Iraq copter crash; 12 wounded

Originally published Monday, September 21, 2009 at 3:50 p.m.
Updated Monday, September 21, 2009 at 7:57 p.m.
FAIRBANKS -- A Fort Wainwright soldier died Saturday when the UH-60 Black Hawk helicopter in which he rode crashed north of Baghdad.
Spc. Michael S. Cote, 20, of Denham Springs, La., had been in Alaska since March 2008. The helicopter mechanic was assigned to the Task Force 49 aviation unit at Fort Wainwright.
The circumstances surrounding the crash, which occurred in Balad, Iraq, are under investigation, according to a U.S. Army news release. Cote’s relatives have been notified.
The New York Times reported on Sunday that 12 soldiers were also wounded in the Saturday night crash in Balad. Maj. William Coppernoll, an Army spokesman, confirmed that the injuries were from the same flight.
The Times reported that a powerful thunderstorm passed through central Iraq at the time of the crash, stirring up dust that cut visibility in the area.
A ceremony of prayer and remembrance will be held at Fort Wainwright, although a time for the memorial has not been set.
As of Saturday, there had been 25 soldier deaths in U.S. Army Alaska this year, including six soldiers based at Fort Wainwright.
Link to original story

 BREAK

 My own words......
The thunderstorm that the above article talks about was very powerful.  The wind kicked up massive amounts of dust and reduced visibility to very short distances.  The fine sand filtered into the hallway outside our clinic where it hung like light smoke in the air.  I ventured out to take pictures of the storm, but they came out too dark to post.  The rest of the clinic staff and I left at 2030 on the dot, during a intermission in the storm.  I laid down to sleep about 2045, and shortly thereafter heard the Big Voice talking, but couldn't understand what was being said.  Listening for the accompanying sirens that would signal an indirect fire or other attack, but hearing none, I rolled over and went back to sleep.

Only after learning of the crash the next morning did I put two and two together.  The Big Voice had been recalling all medical personnel to the Air Force-run 332nd EMDG Hospital.


Someone once said a veteran is someone who, at one point in their life, wrote a check made payable to "The United States of America", for an amount of "up to and including my life."  On 19 September 2009, the United States of America cashed that check.  Spc. Michael S. Cote was 20 years old.  He didn't die from a sniper's bullet, an enemy rocket attack, or even friendly fire.  He was a victim of the cliche "being in the wrong place at the wrong time."   That does not make his sacrifice any less, or diminish his family and friends' pain in any way.  He will be missed.  Rest in peace Spc. Cote.


Requiem
by Robert Louis Stevenson

Under the wide and starry sky,
Dig the grave and let me lie;
Glad did I live and gladly die,
And I laid me down with a will.

This be the verse you 'grave for me:
Here he lies where he longed to be;
Home is the sailor, home from the sea,
And the hunter home from the hill.




14 September 2009

Let's Roll!!--First Mobile Clinic Experience


 Let's Roll!

The View From My Seat
The rear hatch was down the entire flight! 


I am in the middle of my first mobile deployment in Iraq, and let me tell you, it has been a HUGE learning experience so far.  I knew ahead of time that I was leaving, in fact I knew about three or four days ahead of time that I was leaving, but when it came time to let me know when I was leaving, I had about 45 minutes notice.  We had already packed about half of the mobile clinic in a big olive drab sea bag the day before, so it was almost ready to go.  It just needed to be finished up with the final test kits and my stethoscope, otoscope, and ophthalmoscope.  I ran back to my CHU to pack my ruck with my computer, a book, and a few clothes.  It's interesting packing for a trip with 45 minutes notice and with no indication of for how long you're leaving.

I got back to the clinic with a few minutes to spare and finished packing the mobile clinic.  Right before I left, the veteran medic in Balad shook my hand and passed on these words of advice, "Remember, pay attention, anything can happen anywhere at any time." He leaned closer, looking into my eyes and stressing every word repeating the words, "Anything can happen anywhere at any time."

The Movement office took me to the Catfish Air PAX terminal and explained how the whole process worked.  If you think that flying commercial air is slightly confusing, fly Mil-Air.  It's not so much that it is confusing, it's that you have to learn an entire new set of lingo.  Showtime, Space-R, Space-A, Space-Block.  It takes a little bit to get it all straight in your head.  Anyway, I got Space-A'd and had a showtime for one of the Chinook missions that night going to Camp Warhorse. 

I really thought a Chinook would be bigger.  They are only about the size of a small bus.  I was thinking more along the lines of a flying Greyhound.  But I was not disappointed with the flight experience.  Handing my sea bag  with the mobile clinic in it to one of the crew members, the words of a contractor aquaintance came back to me.  "Sit near the rear."  So I did. 

I looked forward towards the cockpit and watched the crew members perform their last pre-flight checks.  It really hit home that we were getting ready to fly over hostile territory when I watched the starboard door gunner lock and load his 240B 7.62 mm machine gun.

The engines whined and strained as we began to roll forward, gently rocking back and forth as we taxied to the runway.  I certainly saw the wheels on the helo while boarding, but I didn't instinctively understand that the Chinook could roll along the ground like a taxiing fixed-wing.  The guy across the aisle motioned at me and yelled, asking me if this was my first time.  I read his lips more than heard him.  I nodded.  He made motions like the chopper was going to rock back and forth even more, and then made vomitting movements.  Not the thing that you want to have someone tell you moments before liftoff on your first chopper ride. 

Within a few minutes the engines became even louder and the dual props spun faster, and we lifted off.  We hovered several feet off the ground for a few minutes while the pilots and crew checked the aircraft one last time.  The rear crew member dropped the rear hatch as we lifted into the Balad night.  As the lights of JBB faded into the distance, the night completely enveloped us and the whine of the engines became a dull drone.

It was only a ten minute ride from JBB to Warhorse, but it was a beautiful ride.  It would have been very peaceful if not for the fact we were flying over unsecured territory.

Got into the PAX terminal at Warhorse and tried to contact GLS movement, but no luck with the first number.  Went back to the desk Sgt, got two more numbers.  No dice.  Interupted his dinner a third time, he had no idea what to do, and went back to eating.  I took down a number from the poster on the desk for the Mayor cell.  Number didn't work.  Disconnected.  Dang.  Interupted Sgt for the 4th time.  He called over a bus drive and asked him if he would get me away from him so he could eat in peace.....uh.....bring the bus around and take me to the Mayor cell.  Got to the Mayor cell.  They had no idea who to call or what to do, so they put me up in temp billeting.  Somehow, my GS rating of GS-12 was high enough to rate me a VIP CHU.  I'm not sure what makes it VIP.  The horizontal twin bed, nightstand, and locker that are in every single CHU or tent or barracks I have ever been in?  I'm not complaining, considering the first CHU they assigned me to was full, making me have to return and listen to two SGTs and a SPC argue over why the board said the CHU was empty, but was really full.  Finally got to another CHU, got settled in.

I got to the GLS office the next day and got my mobile clinic set up.  Had my first patients today and it went very well.  The last guy shook my hand and said, "Thanks, Doc."  I finally feel like I'm making a difference.


First Mobile Clinic

 
The outside of the office where I have my clinic .

 
 
People wanted more pictures of the Iraq bases, so here is the view from the clinic door.


  My Buddies, the Ugandan Guards 

Don't Freak Out.....

Civilian contractor shot dead on US base in Iraq
BAGHDAD — A civilian contractor was shot and killed Sunday on an American military base in the Iraqi city of Tikrit and a U.S. soldier has been detained in connection with the incident, the military said.
The contractor was shot at 8:30 a.m. at Camp Speicher, the military said in a statement.
Houston-based KBR confirmed the man killed was one of its employees, 27-year-old Lucas Vinson from Louisiana.
"As the Army is leading the investigation of the incident, KBR is not providing further comment at this time," spokeswoman Heather Browne said in an e-mailed statement. "We are of course fully cooperating with the Army on its continued investigation."
Maj. Derrick Cheng, a public affairs officer, said a soldier had been detained in connection with the incident, but that he could not divulge any more information while the investigation is ongoing.
"We offer our sincere condolences to the family of the individual," he said.
A statement by the family e-mailed to The Associated Press by Vinson's brother, Wesley Vinson, said that Lucas Vinson was from Leesville, Louisiana.
"He was a friend to everyone who knew him, a peace-maker, a great big brother with a heart of gold," said the statement. The family said he loved to travel and wanted to visit as many countries as he could.
Wesley Vinson declined to comment beyond what was in the statement.
The U.S. military makes wide use of contractors in Iraq for security, technical support and supply functions.
KBR is the primary support contractor in Iraq, providing troops with essential services, including housing, meals, mail delivery and laundry.
As of June 30, 1,395 civilian employees of U.S. government contractors had been killed in Iraq, according to an AP count.

09 September 2009

Strange Sort of Freedom

**Disclaimer**
I have been thinking about this post for a while, but I never really got around to writing it until now.  It examines how we live over here, and is not meant to be critical, but oberservational.

We live in a strange sort of freedom.


We don't do laundry, rather we drop it off to KBR and they do it.  We don't cook or do dishes, the DFAC does all of that for us.  We don't pay rent, electricity, or water, we live in CHUs.  We don't carry blackberrys or cell phones, so no calls at 0400 or emails always coming in.  Nothing to spend money on, so we save a lot.  Company pays for all transportation costs in country, so no money going out there.  

The flipside is.....

We have to preschedule all of our laundry needs, because if we don't plan, we will run out of clothes before the clean ones are back.  we don't get to cook and have to eat when, where and what the DFAC says.  (I don't have anything to say about the lack of doing dishes.  I enjoy the heck out of that!)  We live in CHUs.  That is a 12x12 room that we share with another person.  No privacy, no time by yourself away from everyone else.  200 yards away from showers and toilets.  However, its better than a tent, and no matter how dirty it is, is still better than most of our front line boys in Iraq and Afghanistan.  We don't get phone calls or emails all the time, but We also don't have as much contact with home as we would like.  Nothing to spend money on....I guess that's good too.  If we buy it, we have to haul it around with us or ship it home.  Company pays for all the transportation, but they can use that transportation to move our living and working arrangements hundreds of miles with 24 hours notice.

Everything has two sides.  It is just which side you choose to believe in and dwell on that will either drive you crazy or let you live in relative peace.

08 September 2009

I'm not sure how I feel now that I'm in Iraq. "Finally" comes to mind. But so does relieved, depressed, happy, anxious, bored, and excited.

Iraq is certainly different than Kuwait. Even though it wasn't where I was originally scheduled to go, I feel lucky that I was able to live in Kuwait for a few months. I think I have a totally different perception of the people and culture than I would have had I only lived on base in Iraq. I met some amazing people, contractors and locals, and had some amazing experiences. I can only wonder what Iraq will hold in store. I am excited to see what the coming year will bring, how I will change, how the world will change. It still amazes me that 7 months ago, I wouldn't have dreamed I would be where I'm at right now.

I have been in country two days and my CHU still isn't cleaned. I had my head light on last night when I got up and was appalled to see how much dirt was swirling in the air as I moved, so I turned it off. What I can't see won't hurt me, right? Consequently, my sinuses have been driving me crazy and I'm thinking about buying stock in the Claritin company. As soon as I get my one day off a week, I am moving everything from the CHU out on the sidewalk and cleaning everything from top to bottom. It definitely needs it.

Outside my housing pod looking left,


and right.



Behind all the walls, looking down the sidewalk.




Our clinic

05 September 2009

Joint Base Balad, Iraq

The lost bag saga is finally over. I recovered my last bag around 1930 last night! I am never flying on three different airplanes through four airports again. Lesson learned.

I got in to JBB about 0430 this morning and hit the rack hard. 0630 came very early. When I woke up this morning, I wished I would have looked a little bit closer at where I was sleeping. Holy cow, my CHU is FILTHY! I am feeling the effects of too few hours sleep and the massive amount of dust I inhaled throughout the night. I am cleaning when I leave work tonight.

I am going to try to take pictures and get them up over the next few days, so everyone can see what it's like over here. At least I can say that I live in an exclusive gated community in a historic neighborhood.

02 September 2009

Slowly dying in tent city...

Looking outside the wire.

Greetings from Tent City, Camp LSA, Kuwait. It has been a few weeks since the last time I posted, so I will catch everyone up on what's happening. I and M.M. finally got to go back to Ft. Benning, GA to attend CRC. Good except that they sent us a week early, so we had to lounge around a hotel for about a week. Upside--free unlimited Arabic lessons. Downside--Bedbugs. No really, bedbugs.

Fast forward two weeks. I, M.M., and a guy named S.P. (GLS I.T.) fly from Atlanta to Chicago O'Hare to Amman, Jordan to KWI, Kuwait City. In the process, either American Airlines or Royal Jordanian lost ALL of our luggage. All 6 bags. I know what you're thinking, that it takes some kind of special skill to lose 6 bags. Apparently, the baggage handlers forgot to put down their bongs/joints/hookas prior to shoving our bags wherever they pleased. I want to know how UPS/FedEx can track millions of packages everyday and can tell you where your package is within 15 seconds, but our airlines lose almost a million bags a day. Come on people!!

We arrived at Camp LSA and were assigned a tent in Tent City. Its not much but at least we have a floor. That is always a plus. M.M. got both of his bags, and subsequently has flown to Iraq, S.P. and I both have one of ours, but are waiting on our bags with our TA-50. I am not sure if the attitude from the guy behind the counter of the lost baggage counter at KWI is a result of the language barrier/translation error, or he just doesn't give a shit, but he doesn't seem to be incredibly concerned that we are missing baggage. Who volunteers for that kind of job? What guy is looking at the paper and sees an ad for "Luggage Reclaimation/Lost Luggage Services Representative" and thinks that might be the kind of job that is rewarding and a person could really look forward to going in to on Monday morning.

Good times though. I keep trying to remind myself that every day that I am here is one day closer to coming home, whenever that may be. Its not like I was doing anything anyway. We are getting used to the routine though. Sleep until around 0930, sign the roster at 1000, sleep until 1700, get up and take a shower, go to chow, dick around until mid-rats at 0000, call home/get online/chat with soldiers in the MWR or USO or smoking huts, then hit the rack around 0430. Its a hard life, but someone has to do it. The only downside is showering with 10 other guys, shitting with 10 other guys, eating with 100+ other guys, sleeping with 10 other guys, generally having a bunch of other people around all the time. I'm ready to go to Iraq if for no other reason than to have my own room again.

Until next time....


Graffiti on the bathroom wall, kind of says it all...